yay for fun weekends!

So, I realized when I woke up this morning that I've closed down the bars the last 3 nights. The bars are so much fun! I'm definitely not tired of being 21! Last night was a lot of fun too! We BBQ-ed at Steph and Nicks and drank. There were quite a few rugby girls there and we had a good time! Almost like old times, except there was no one dancing which I'm OK with!
The game went OK, we lost and we had to borrow 3 girls from Des Moines who were rookies I think. There were a couple of people playing new positions (like our 3 rookies). I played full-back!!!! SHOCK! It was interesting! I think that I like playing a position where I get in more, although I sure tried yesterday. But none the less, it was interesting and I can add that as another position that I've played. Ok, off to go get some food and my car from Steph and Nick's. Have a great day everyone, and don't forget that Sunday night TV resumes tonight!!! Yay!

TGIF

HAPPY WEEKEND ALL!!!! BE SAFE AND HAVE FUN!!

ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGG!!!!

So, the last post I wasn't happy. Compared to the train-wreck of a night I've had, Tuesday seems all happy! My life here is still unhappy. I've actually talked to a chem friend who has a house and I'm thinking of making some kind of change. I'm about to go crazy!!!!

At practice it climaxed. I got stiff-armed in the neck by Mary (Tracey's HS player that now plays for us and everyone worships the ground she walks on). 1). I don't really like Mary. She thinks she's better than most of us because she's played longer than most of the team and she's kinda rude. 2). She won't adapt to our style of playing. She refuses to use the same binds as we do in scrums and lines and won't listen to why we do what we do. 3). She offers comments all the time, which is really just a pet-peeve of mine....under the breath but making sure everyone knows what you're saying isn't cool anymore. We're in COLLEGE...GROW UP!!! So anyway, I got stiff-armed...oh well, it happens. But there were people who seemed to think it's OK to stiff-arm your own teammates and not look where you're stiff arming. That's really where I lost it. I was walking toward where we put our shoes on to get some water...and just picked up my stuff and went to my car. Well, by this time, I was really upset and was hyperventilating....thank God for Stephanie. She reminded me to breath. So, practice is still going on, and I'm leaving. By the time I get onto LaHarpe, I'm crying. Rugby has never made me cry before, atleast not when it wasn't an injury. So it made me think, do I still want to be playing? I've never been this unhappy in college or with rugby. I tried to talk myself out of it last week, but obviously that didn't work. And I just bought new cleats today...I'm hoping I didn't waste my money. I'm also still going this weeekend although we may be playing people short. But we'll have to see after that. My mom is coming up next weekend for family day, but that may be it for me. I can't take much more of this. I thought my sophomore year was crazy with babies, dogs, and crappy houses....that was a breeze comparitively.

So, this post is essentially me complaining more. I need to stop complaining, especially when my problems are small compared to those who are trying to prepare for Rita. I try not to dwell on it but it seems that I can only think of ways to break my contract here at home and how to make rugby fun again. If anyone has any suggestions, I'd be really open to them.

The only good thing going on right now is school (surprisingly) and AXE. Those people are so much fun, and they don't make me feel like crap all of the time! Wow, I forgot what that felt like!! Anyway, I was elected as the Alumni Secretary for AXE because the other girl got sick. I don't really have to do much, but its fun being involved. I'm also still a Student Ambassador, which I still love! I'm also working 9 hours a week in the Graduate Office which keeps me busy. Right now I'm still working scholarship, but in a few weeks, I'll graduate to Institutional pay...lucky me $5.15/ hr! Raking in the big bucks!

I'm also going to start applying to grad schools. I want to go in Analytical Chemistry. The only sad thing for me is that all of the really good ones are in the Midwest. I had wanted to get out for a couple of years, but it seeems that Texas or North Carolina are the only interesting places I may get to go. I'll probably end up at KState or KU or Uof Ill. We'll see where I get accepted and where I get money (if I get any).

Ok, this is enough for one night. I feel much better getting all of that out of my system. I'm sorry if it brings you down. Don't worry too much...I tend to make something out of nothing. and then overreact. I hope you all are well, and I REALLY do miss you!

30 days till Alumni! :)

Last blog: happy, this one: not so much

Well, its only been a couple of days since my last post and I've been extremely frustrated since! On a happy note, my boys won on Sunday 26-20 and they played OK...not the best but its early in the season. Sunday night I did a lot of homework which I desperately needed to do. And Mondy I spent in class or making up time. Practice got cancelled because it was raining and lightening. Although about 4:45, it stopped raining and the sun came out. So, it was free time which I really enjoyed.
I got really P-Oed at practice today. This weekend we play in Des Moines and the Heart plays in Oklahoma, and BOTH of our coaches are going to the Heart games. In my opinion, when you agree to be coach, the first order of priority is our own team, not the Heart. If there had been no conflict, then there would have been no problem. But as it is, we're short backs and Steph may not be able to play....so that would put us short 2 backs and I don't know how many extra forwards we're going to have. We had a few injuries this last weekend (all minor but people may require more time off) so our numbers are down anyway. Helen is going as our coach for the weekend which may prove to be interesting although that doesn't really upset me. The fact that the coaches don't trust me or Steph really bothers me....we're only useful when it conveniences them or the team. I've never wanted to quit, honestly, before but twice in the last week I've considered it. What does that mean? I'd rather hang out with my AXE friends than the rugby team with the exception of a couple of people. And I am hanging out with my AXE friends more...they're fun and nerdy too. So I fit right in! On a side note, we're ordering hoodies for rugby again....and I already have 2. I really like the design, but I don't really think I need another hoodie. Dilhema, dilhema.
Ok, well, I'm just rambling now...and I should probably do some homework so I can go out tomorrow and Thursday night!
32 days till Alumni!

Yay for good weekends!

So, this weekend was very full! I went home on Friday night and my mom fixed me, Kim, Kristin H., and Sarah Bernard dinner and we got to sit around and talk. We started watching The Cutting Edge and had a long and involved conversation about the movies we used to watch as kids. It was a great night.

Saturday morning, we went to the game and we won against Benedictine and it was nice to win the first game of the season. Then KU, being the b*tches they are, pulled the Jazz to play with them. But we held them from scoring for like the first 14 min and I think they only scored 3 times the whole game. That was exciting! Then my car started traversing the state. We started in Atchison, KS and ended up in St. Louis several hours later. Kim's mom made us enchiladas and we had chips and salsa and guacamole and it was super yummy! And we got showers too, so we didn't stink by the time we got to Matty H's. On the way to the party, we stopped to get some beer....and we were so goofy and giggly. I attribute this to the heat and dehydration of the day! And the giggly-ness didn't end there...we were goofy the whole night. It was so much fun! AND I GOT TO SEE SO MANY PEOPLE!!! I had such a good time catching up, that it made me totally anxious for Alumni! You all better come, for my sanity. We left early this morning to head back to the ville and stopped at Bread Co. Yum! Kirksville is so devoid of good places to eat. And now, I'm putting off the hours of homework I have to do to write to you! I also went cleat shopping....but I didn't wat to pay for adult cleats and the kids cleats didn't fit. I kinda blew-out the side of my right cleat in the game....I had to duck tape it to my foot for the second game! It was kinda funny :) So now, I'm cleatless and I need them for next weekend at latest. I"ll probably break down on Thursday or Friday and buy adult cleats. Well, I'd better go attempt that homework and get psyched for my Chiefs game tonight. Its the Sunday night game and we play Oakland...I hope that it goes well! Have wonderful weeks all and I still miss you, but only 34 days till the Alumni game!!!

This is a test

I'm testing myself....wish me luck! :)

sorry its been so long!

So, I created a new blog, because I messed the last one up somehow. Anyway, its been a while since I"ve posted, so I'll catch you all up.

Labor Day: Didn't do much. I went out and got rightfully drunk for an AXE friend's 21st on Sun. night. It was a lot of fun. I'm finding that the more I hang out with AXE people, the more I want to hang out with them! They're such a fun bunch! And they like to go out with me. And I can be a nerd (myself) around them and they're all nerds too!

Following week: Had recruitment....it went OK. There were a good number at the info meeting. A lot showed up that Thursday, not so many on the following Monday. But I think we've got 6-10 staying around. Which is good. That Wednesday at AXE, I got nominated as Alumni Sec because the girl that was doing it got sick.

Last weekend: I went to Columbia for a Mizzou game. Those are so much fun! It's a dry campus except when there's a home game. There was a lot of alcohol there! And I got to hang out with my little sister, which was fun! Then we went home and went to the Chiefs game on Sunday! GO CHIEFS! They had an AWESOME season opener. It was about a 1000 degrees, but it was fun anyway. Dad forgot the tickets until we were like 10 min from the stadium, so we had to go back to PH. Tailgating was a little rushed, but it was fun none the less. You'll never guess who sang at the game! Ok, we'll you're going to find out because I can't keep you in supsense too long via internet. Jessica Simpson and Nick sang "America the Beautiful" pre-game as a tribute to 9/11 (that was the date of the game). It was cool! And the Chiefs won, so it was an all around good weekend!

This week: Well, Monday, I wanted to break my lease and quit rugby, so I"ve definitely had better nights. I left for the library and started crying, so I went over to Kim's and hung out over there for a while. It was good for my mental attitude. That was the night my away message said "I miss the old girls". I needed some good friends that night, and I was having issues finding them. Kim and Steph were about my only options, and I didn't want to overload them with my BS. But Kim took it all in and gave me very good advise and I really appreciated her! Tuesday night, I wasn't in the mood to do homework, so I just hung out and went to bed early. Last night (Wednesday) I had AXE and passed up going out so I could do homework....so I can go out tonight!!

So today, I successfully gave blood (I failed the iron test on Tues) and was late to my class. We had a guest speaker, but she was very nice about me interrupting her. It's cold and rainy. So, I got home and was soaked and frozen. I've thawed out now and I'm going to go get ready for a wet and cold practice. Then we're having registration and a pizza party here at the house....yay, 20 wet muddy people in my house. I can't wait! I'll miss most of it though because I've got class tonight. Damn.

OK, time to sign off....sorry its taken me so long to write on of these things. Hope to hear from you all soon!!